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For this month's IWSG post, I'm going to do some real expressing.
I'm not one to usually wallow in self-pity, but I'm really frustrated with the publishing industry. I'm a medical sales rep during the day, so I'm used to rejection and having to compete to close the deal. So high pressure and do-or-die is what I deal with on a daily basis.
There are days when I wonder if this is all worth it. Writing and publishing, I mean. I've trudged through the rejection, the heartache, and the obstacles for years...and maybe I'm just running out of steam. I look at all this time and money I'm investing, and I'm not seeing even a hint of interest out there in my work. This is all so different from my day job, because my writing is not just work. It's my art.
I feel like I've been doing a lot of begging lately. Begging for people to read my blog. Begging for people to buy my book. Begging for reviews from the few who have read my book. Several awesome people have reached out to help, and that has been my saving grace. But I guess I'm just not able to gain any traction. No momentum.
Anyhoo, I have a second book and third book on the way. As we all know, the percent of readership of sequels drops with each subsequent volume. So, should I invest all this time and money into books 2 and 3 for even LESS readership?
I've been trying to promote myself as much as possible, but I just don't see even a blip on the screen to show me it's worth it. I still have the same four people signed up for my newsletter. My blog traffic has dropped. And my sales. Well, let's not talk about my sales. Even after making my book 99 cents, I might as well have made it $99.
Something's missing, and I just can't figure it out. It keeps me awake at night, and it's my first thought in the morning. Many would say that my writing and publishing venture is a very expensive "hobby." I guess there's worse ways to blow your money. But then there's also time. Being a writer, publisher, and marketer takes up a lot of my time, and I can't help but wonder if my time is better spent doing something else. Especially if I suck.
It's been a very long time since I've been this down, but it's my current state of mind. I don't normally have such a bad attitude, but I just had to get this out.